By: Lisa Blomgren, Transformations Alumni Coordinator
Dear little one. I haven’t met you yet but I already love you more than I have ever loved anything in this world. Each little kick and squirm is a reminder of the new life that I am bringing into this world and all of the adventures that lie ahead of us.
I know a time will come when you ask me those 6 words. We may be at a restaurant with friends or a neighborhood BBQ, but you are bound to ask me, “Mommy, why don’t you drink?”
I know that this is not a conversation that most parents are prepared to have with their little ones. And I know that I can also look at it from two perspectives. I can either feel shame for having to explain my choices to you, or I can beam with pride, as I tell you all about second chances, not following the crowd, and not being afraid to ask for help if you ever need it.
Eight and a half years ago, I could hardly take care of myself. I could not imagine a life for myself. Never mind a life where I am responsible for taking care of someone as perfect and precious as you are. As I spend my evenings preparing your nursery and reading “how-to” baby books, I can’t help but smile. I want you to know that no matter how tough things get, there is always hope for a brighter tomorrow. That your fate is never sealed and that it is never too late to start over. Each day that I wake up and choose to be sober is for me. I realized a long time ago that I had to do it for myself if I wanted this to truly work, but my goodness are you some amazing motivation to continue to strive to be a better person and a good example. I chose this life for myself all of those years ago, and because of that decision and the hard work that I put in, I get the honor of being your mommy.
So when we are at that BBQ, and you ask me why mommy is not having fun like everyone else is. I will be prepared. I will tell you about all the amazing things that a life in sobriety has brought me. About all the fun that I have had, and why mommy chooses to be sober.